April 3, 2020 at 7:32 pm #12981
Well, I became one of the millions joining the ranks of the unemployed today. Layed off due to Corona destroying the economy. Please pray for my faith to be strengthened and me not to take this out on my family. Very frustrated and some anger. 2 people out of 8 in our PMO group were let go. Whether by seniority, performance, or some combination of the two, I should be in the top two, not the bottom. Makes no sense. I thought I had heard from the Lord that this was the last job I would have before we went home. Even hesitated to look for other jobs when I wanted to out of dissatisfaction because I felt like the Lord had showed me to ride this one all the way into the shore of the promised land…aka the harpazo and Abba’s house. Well, I guess were fixin’ to find out pretty quick whether I heard from the Lord or just made up some thought in my mind. I distinctly remember standing, having this sense of a rising ocean and a wave coming in behind me (I grew up in West LA/Santa Monica, so I know what that feels like) followed by this thought that this wave represented the job I was just layed off from and that I would ride that wave/job all the way in, as in my last job before going home. So weary of fighting to survive in this wretched, fallen world. Prayers appreciated for grace, peace, wisdom and provision. I don’t know how much more of this world my soul can take. Maranatha!!!
April 3, 2020 at 7:48 pm #12987
April 3, 2020 at 8:08 pm #12990
Praying for you. I was also part of the first wave to be let go at the company I used to work for. It was actually a blessing in disguise to be part of the 1st wave to get the pink slip. Got reimbursed for all my expenses, paid for 6 weeks of unused vacation, received a good severance package and then was able to collect unemployment. 4 months after I was let go all the others ended up getting the pink slip and received nothing … because the company collapsed. I saw how the Lord was watching over me and still is. He will do the same for you and your family as well! Keep the faith.
Note: I was going to be looking for work this spring … but since the coronavirus outbreak … its obvious on hold, but I’m not worried. The Lord has our lives all planned out. He opens doors and closes them. I truly believe He is coming to snatch us out VERY soon! Keep looking up.
April 3, 2020 at 9:41 pm #12995
First let me say that you are indeed in good hands! That said, whatever state you find yourself in rest in the peace that thanksgiving brings. I don’t know the future, but I do know it is short live.
Many high Christian days will soon be upon us. If the Rapture happens, no worries. If the the Rapture doesn’t happen no worries, He will supply all your needs!
I know that it is easy to sound confident and holy not being in your shoes right now, but my faith would continue to look forward and up!
Bless this blessed brother Lord and increase his faith through his trials. Let your good work Lord be accomplished. Give him a testimony that will ring out throughout eternity!
Remember his frame, his heart and his spirit as you minister greatly to him. And I thank you now Father for the tender mercies you have already directed towards him. Make his path easy and straight. Bring him a light light spirit as well. Let joy overflow in his heart, supernaturally, in Jesus’ glorious and powerful name!
April 3, 2020 at 10:03 pm #12998
April 4, 2020 at 3:08 am #13008JozefinaParticipant
April 4, 2020 at 12:54 pm #13019David W. RocheModerator
April 4, 2020 at 2:00 pm #13023YohananModerator
Prayers for you and your family, Watchman. God is still on the throne and He will provide. Given everything that is going on in the world, not just covid-19, it is looking more and more like the Rapture is right at the door. Your vision has not yet failed just because you lost your job. There may not be enough time to find another and that would make your vision truly from God. Stay in prayer and have faith that you belong to Jesus. He will lead your path.
April 4, 2020 at 4:26 pm #13031
Hopefully the Lord is just gifting you a good time of rest before His coming! I am looking forward to Passover week. I am thinking this is when the Lord was cut off, and this might be when he picks up the clock again with Israel. Praying for you that you can have peace during this time. My husband’s office has been told to expect lay offs too.
April 4, 2020 at 8:23 pm #13037
Thanks to all for prayers. Struggling right now to find peace. Was abandoned by my earthly dad as a kid and this just sets off all kinds of triggers of feeling like a failure, uncared for, and unwanted. I know they are lies from the enemy, but the emotions are so overwhelming at times. So weary of stuggling to make it in this world…don’t know if I have it in me for another round of suffering and pain.
April 4, 2020 at 8:51 pm #13038
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April 6, 2020 at 5:57 am #13102
Have not been able to sleep much last night. Have to drive into work this morning to turn in my computer equipment and security badge. Will likely encounter the VP who I believe made the decision to make me one of the less than 10% of employees in her group let go. Probably driving in around 9-10 am CDT this morning. If you read this and have the opportunity, please pray on my behalf. Pray that I can walk in self-control and say some things that I want her to hear without being given over to ungodly, sinful anger. Pray, too, that if there is anything evil that is underlying her decision (e.g., the possibility of retribution for my very strong prophetic witness letter at Christmas–no reason at this point to think that is the case, but a friend mentioned it to me on Saturday and it made me wonder), that it would be exposed. I just cannot figure out why they would let one of their better employees go when frankly they had their choice of so many others? I know that runs the risk of sounding arrogant or thinking more highly of myself than I ought to, but it is true. I’m no superstar, but I am a really hard-working, diligent employee committed to representing his employer with integrity and excellence, while demonstrating an uncommon sense of ownership. Honestly, in my experience, there are simply not that many people who demonstrate that kind of approach to their work in our culture today. Anyway, God knows, but it just seems so wrong to me! Thanks for praying.
April 6, 2020 at 7:22 am #13103
April 6, 2020 at 8:24 am #13107
Praying for you Watchman … since you’re a good worker … I’m 99% positive its because you are a Jesus follower. Jesus said in John 15:18-19 “If the world hates you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you. If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.” Cheer up … you’re heaven bound … thee Blessed Hope is going to happen VERY soon! Think on this thought to … your assignment there is over and the Lord wants you at another place to share your faith. Meanwhile He will provide for you and will open another door if His return is delayed.
When I first moved up to Vermont I tried applying at the local bookstore. The interview was extremely short … after they saw my resume listing my education (Christian High School and Bible College) they immediately said “I wouldn’t fit in with them” and that was the end of the interview. I thought they don’t know me, how could they say that? Then I soon realized the owners are Masonic satanists. Instead of leaving by the front entrance, I exited the back entrance and saw a small obelisk in their flower garden and carved in their stone sidewalk are the words “there is nothing written in stone” oh, yes there is … the 10 Commandments! Through the years that book store honored the Harry Potter books and encouraged local folks to dress up as witches and warlocks, etc. When Hillary Clinton wrote her 2014 book and went on tour … she personally visited to sign autographs.
So deep down they were right … “I wouldn’t have fit in”
April 6, 2020 at 8:43 am #13109
I am expecting my hard working husband to be let go also. A couple of years ago, he refused to lie for the company, and because of that, they lost a big job they were bidding on. Ever since then, they have sent him out of town to work for other offices. They love him at the other offices, but the salesmen at the office in town have convinced the management that my husband is hard to work with. The truth is that the salesmen are so full of lust for their big commissions that they will say anything to get a contract or get rid of anyone that stands in their way.
April 6, 2020 at 9:24 am #13118
I will be praying for your husband, Blue.
It is VERY hard being in sales unless you own your own company or work for a Christian. Sadly the majority of the companies want their sales force to lie and be dishonest for the sake of the almighty dollar.
My dad used to work for Burroughs – drove around from bank to bank repairing and/or selling check writing machines in northern NJ and NYC. He loved his job and his banking customers all loved him because he was honest and would fix their machines vs. selling them a new one. They always requested him and they knew if he said they needed a new machine because the parts are no longer available, they believed him. Things started to change in the 1980’s when W. Michael Blumenthal took over the corporation. He was a mason and worked under the Jimmy Carter administration as U.S. Secretary of Treasury. He gave the orders that the Burroughs sales force MUST lie and sell products vs. repairing them. My dad refused to be dishonest so he resigned after 30 something years with them. They were shell shocked and sadden with his resignation. Not to long afterwards the company collapsed and Unisys took over. My dad found a job in the maintenance dept with the local school district … I just googled … the school district currently has 14 schools but it was far more when he was working there. They paid him well and got many perks. They assigned him to the ordering of janitorial supplies and uniforms for the maintenance and bus drivers for all the schools because they saw he was honest and could be trusted. He was also out plowing the school parking lots and getting paid overtime. It sounded like a downgrade in position roles but he got paid well and he was much happier. The Lord provided and he retired from there with great benefits as well.
The Lord has all our lives planned out including where He wants us to work. All things work out together for good to those who love the Lord.
Keep looking up!
April 6, 2020 at 8:56 am #13111kmdickinsonParticipant
I am definitely praying for you. I’ve been in your situation and faced months of unemployment. But, when it was over, I looked back and saw that my family and I were well taken care of by God during those times. Never missed a meal, had a roof, always had gas for the car…and how all that happened is a total mystery to me. As my wife says “We were poorer than a Church mouse”.
Also, don’t second guess the decision to let you go. Often times, when a decision defies explanation, it’s God’s hand in the matter.
April 8, 2020 at 4:10 am #13215LozParticipant
April 8, 2020 at 9:54 am #13220David W. RocheModerator
April 8, 2020 at 9:54 pm #13240
Thank you all for your prayers.
Trying to stay positive and in faith. Talking to recruiters, updating LinkedIn profile, submitting online applications. Feel very bifurcated. Rapture schizophrenia. Focusing on finding a job like it’s this huge priority, which it is if we are going to be here awhile. Not much savings to draw down from. Asking God to save us before our financial wagon plunges over the cliff that sets just a little further on down the hill that I feel like we are careening down today. And yet, in the midst of the tyranny of the seemingly urgent, I am still aware that His trumpet could blow at any moment. Yep. No problems in my life that the rapture would not fix in a moment, the mere twinkling of an eye.
April 12, 2020 at 11:26 am #13398
Guys…I am really, really struggling today. Sitting here literally weeping as I type, dealing with so much anger at the Lord for allowing my life to be so unnecessarily hard…yet again. I just spent somewhere between 1-2 hours online trying to figure out and jump through the hoops to get unemployment. After about 90 minutes of trying to figure out a non-intuitive, poorly designed, poorly functioning program/website, it dumped me out and I have no idea if I have even completed the steps necessary to draw unemployment. I wanted to pick up my lap top and throw it with all my might through the front window of my office, while screaming F-bombs at t.he TOP OF MY LUNGS!! Great man of God that I am. Pathetic! I am so done with this world and trying to survive in it. Please Lord, if You are not coming soon, then just come get me. I want to come home NOW!!!!!!!!
Woke up thinking of this song this morning–get me out of this unsafe, unkind, unreliable world… I just want to be with God where I am safe, loved, and free to be who He created me to be in glorifying Him. I feel none of those things today.
April 12, 2020 at 3:07 pm #13430
I can relate to what you’re going through. In the midst of trying to file for unemployment I was packing and moving at the same time. I was also dealing with a rep over the phone who misguided me with the procedure and said I couldn’t file yet until my severance ended and that wasn’t true. I was suppose to still notify them and get the process started and still be looking for work even though I wasn’t entitled to the benefits to start. I had all sorts of problems with their website so I went in person to the nearest office. I was later informed I should have applied 3 weeks earlier to get the process rolling so I was penalized and didn’t get paid for 3 weeks of unemployment wages. It is a confusing mess on the ins and outs of the whole process. One rep claimed I can fight the 3 weeks they withheld back by going to court. I just didn’t want to stand before a judge, it just wasn’t worth it. Then applying for health and dental benefits was another issue. On the phone for a few days, with their lovely phone tree of options to choose … then got cut off while on hold. That benefit rep didn’t make the effort to call me back so I ended up with a different rep and had to go through the process all over again.
I will be praying things work out for you. Can you call up your local unemployment office and see if you can get an appointment to see a rep in person? Or is their facility all shut down and no appointments at this time?
April 12, 2020 at 2:01 pm #13422
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April 12, 2020 at 2:32 pm #13426Boulder95Participant
May 11, 2020 at 4:35 pm #15225
Well, it’s been just over five weeks now since I lost my job. I have applied for somewhere close to 45 project manager positions and have worked with six different recruiters during that time frame. So far, no job yet. The Lord has provided through some unused vacation time my previous employer tacked on to my final check and a few weeks of severance pay, along with the government’s “stimulus” monopoly money, which feels like a handout and really leaves a bad taste in my mouth. (Maybe that’s just my sinful pride, but I don’t like the idea of handouts when I am able and willing to work.)
I really wish I could hear from the Lord more clearly than I do on matters that are not written in black and white in His Word. In the back of my mind, I still wonder if I heard Him correctly back in 2016 that my previous job that I just lost was going to be the last job I had before we went home. Did I just misinterpret Him in thinking I would be working right up until the day the trumpet sounded, instead of losing the job before the rapture but not needing another one before we are harpazoed?
It makes staying disciplined in applying for work more mentally challenging, because I don’t know if I am just going through an effort in unnecessary futility because I am not trusting God and what I thought I heard/understood back in 2016? Or was that just my own thought? What I do know for sure from the Word is that if a man is not willing to work, let him not eat. Last I checked, I still get hungry pretty regularly, as does my wife. (who thankfully still has her job). So, I have tried to make a genuine concerted effort to find another job, but so far everything has fallen through. It is frustrating, and at the same time I am not even quite sure how to react to it. I have to fight off the fear that comes when I feel like our “financial wagon” is careening down the hillside out of control and headed for a cliff, knowing I have absolutely no power to stop it other than to cry out to the Lord for His grace and mercy to save us from financial disaster, yet again.
I do have one six-month contract position where a first interview went well and that I hope to get to round two this week. Meantime, my unemployment claim has still not even been processed yet for approval. Reminds me of when I got so sick with Lyme and had to go on disability…had it not been for the disability policies I had taken out through my employer, I literally would have either died or committed suicide before they ever arrived at the final disposition of my case. I think it was somewhere between 2-3 years before they finally decided that yes, I really was sick. SMH. I think it was President Reagan who famously once said some of the scariest words you may ever hear are, “I’m with the government and I’m here to help.”
Your prayers would be appreciated for the Lord to continue to sustain us financially, for His peace and favor in the midst of the uncertainty as I continue to look for work, and for His will to be done regarding a new job. Thank you.
If we are still here on June 1 and I don’t have a new job by then, I will have to take a really deep breath.
May 11, 2020 at 5:32 pm #15228
Watchman, praying for you and thousands of others who are now under the new normal of unemployment. It is all part of the dark and evil plan … but stronger is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
Many of my colleagues are either furloughed or moved into other positions within healthcare. I am scheduled for the next level to be furloughed, with all of the elective surgeries canceled or people out of work and can’t have surgeries, you will begin to see many healthcare organizations closing or closing certain parts. My company is a mid sized healthcare organization and we are loosing 100 thousand dollars a day, we can’t afford to remain solvent.
Trusting that we will rapture out of here soon. If not, trying to think of next steps as well. I would agree with you, depending on current government for the promised “we’ll take care of you” monies is not very comforting, but God knows your heart, Psalm 37:25 “I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread.”
For me, I’m getting too old to look for a new Job. If our church can’t bounce back, we will have to close it and then we’ll both be out of work as well but not quite retirement age yet, catch 22. I have contemplated what it may look like to either live on my daughters land in our camper, or a tent city, while taking care of my elderly mom too … interesting prospective to contemplate.
Well, I have to take comfort in the knowing this to shall pass and we will soon be home to glory via a trumpet! Remember, in John 16:33 “Jesus said, I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” I have to hold on to scripture —- I memorize a lot, my daughter puts verses all around the house, keeping Gods word ever in front of me, is what I have found As the only thing that gives me comfort.
May 11, 2020 at 7:34 pm #15236
Hang in there. Don’t get discouraged Jesus is coming soon! Here is the latest news that will put a smile on your face!
Per Sean Osborne @ Eschatology Today … Mike Pompeo is flying to Israel to meet with Bibi and to implement Trump’s “Peace to Prosperity” Plan and will annex parts of the Jewish land of the West Bank.
I’m praying for you! And I know what Lyme disease is like. I’m, unfortunately, battling that right now. I have painful inflammation in my stomach and intestines and I’m taking 4 Tumeric pills per day to stop the pain. I will be having another teleconference meeting with my doctor tomorrow morning and hopefully she will give me more pills or something stronger to fight off this disease. It would be funny if the rapture happens tomorrow morning while talking to her … she will see me and my dog flying up.
May 11, 2020 at 7:54 pm #15237
May 12, 2020 at 11:22 am #15283
May 12, 2020 at 12:14 pm #15286Leaving SoonParticipant
@Watchman35, Sorry you lost your job and sorry I haven’t said so earlier.
If your looking for easy ways to make some money to stay afloat a lot of places are hiring for delivery drivers. The one pizza guy told me everyday is like a Friday where he is working. I did deliveries once for exactly one year and made 150 – 300 bucks doing it for about 20 hours a week and the place I worked at really wasn’t that busy.
Also I’ve donated plasma 68 times in the past 12 months or so and have made about 100 bucks a week doing that.
Just hang in there and give The Lord a chance to show His faithfulness.
May 12, 2020 at 7:35 pm #15320
Well, brothers and sisters, my situation has now gotten more complicated. While I continue to look for work and have a couple of promising leads, I am now dealing with a health issue that I can apparently no longer avoid. About ten days ago, I was out on the street corner for the first time in over a month with my rapture warning sign. I started to experience the heart palpitations that I periodically get, which typically are accompanied with headaches and sometimes some numbness in my head/face. In the past, in a few instances when it gets really bad, I get waves of dizziness/lightheadedness. A week ago Friday, it got so bad that I literally for the first time momentarily passed out and collapsed on the street corner. I regained my consciousness almost immediately, and because I was already leaning against the traffic signal pole from feeling dizzy, fortunately I did not do much harm to myself other than bloody my knee a bit. In the past, this has been fairly infrequent and I have just “played through”. It happened again today. I did not pass out, but feel like I came close again. I personally think this is leftover damage from my fight with Lyme disease battle…along with the work of the spiritual forces that hate my soul. Now I am in a struggle for our financial survival and need to be able to get back to work. I CANNOT afford to be sick…my wife needs me working or my life insurance money to care for her. I have no idea what doctor to even go to locally and I am supposed to possibly participate in some job interviews later this week. I CANNOT do this Lord. Either give me enough health to function for my family or take me home. I already feel like such a huge failure in almost every area of my life…I CANNOT take getting sick and putting the burden of my being unable to work on my wife. It’s not fair to her and after all we have been through surely You have better for her than that! Please don’t allow the enemy to do this to me or her Abba, please…
May 12, 2020 at 8:24 pm #15323
Honor this brothers prayers Lord and honor his love for you! Certainly Lord You still occupy Your throne!
The Rapture will happen in your perfect timing, as such we pray that You extend your glorious mercies and keep this brother in great health!
Let Your spiritual economy meet and exceed his every need! Prating for miracles of e very size and ilk.
Just simply asking that You be his ABBA daddy! Let his testimony of the work of Your glorious hand inspire and give eternal thanks!
Make Your love towards him take on the added blessings of being uniquely personal! Glory Lord as You reveal you precious thoughts towards him, even in this late hour!
Take this opportunity Almighty Father to be glorified during these desperate times. Give him neither stone nor snake, but rather the desires of his heart as You have promised.
All the glory will be Yours in this life and throughout eternity! We pray in Christ’s name believing Your will be done! Our solace will be found as we agree to Your glorious will! Amen
May 12, 2020 at 8:44 pm #15326
May 12, 2020 at 11:07 pm #15332Todd TomlinsonParticipant
Watchman I am praying for you brother. There was a time for me not so long ago where I was in a similar situation and I leaned into the fact that one of God’s name is Jehovah Jireh – and he came through for me – providing just what I needed, right when I needed it. I was looking for work and my car had broken down and needed repaired. I took it to the shop and had faith that somehow God would provide. The bill came to $1352 and I wasn’t sure how I was going to pay for it. On that same day two checks arrived in my mailbox from two different companies – refunds for over payments that were a shock to me – the two checks together added up to exactly $1352. I was able to get my car back and I soon had a job (I too am in the IT industry). Even this past week – another example. When I was on a work trip in Australia in March I broke the mirror off the rental car. The deductible was $575. While I have the money to pay it I was hesitant as our company is going through hard times (this week all of the 2500 employees except for about a dozen of us are on furlough without pay) and I hated to shell out $575. I had a guy out of the blue offer to buy a domain name that I had been holding onto for years for $500 – and I got a rebate check in the mail for $75. Coincidence that again the total of both of these added up exactly what I owed to Avis? There is no coincidence. Time and time again God has shown me personally that he is my Father and has always demonstrated providence down to the penny. God showing off? I don’t think so – I think its a demonstration that He is in control.
As a Christian counselor I have helped dozens of people dealing with seemingly insurmountable challenges and my counsel to them is to lean into 1 Peter 5:7. And if they need more encouragement there’s Psalms 55:22, my life verse Jer 29:11, and Phil 4:6. I’m a walking testimony that is proof that God watches over and cares for us more than we will ever know this side of Heaven. God has your back brother. Rest assured and peacefully knowing that thought Christ Jesus all things are possible and God is standing at the end of time looking backwards and has already cleared the path for you.
A tip that I have also shared with my clients and I use it myself is to praise God for the current storm and ask what He wants you to learn from the challenges you are facing. Also praise him for the solution that he already has set up for your situation. Of all my Christian brothers and sisters who have been in similar situations, and I’ve worked with thousands of people over my career – not a single person has gone backwards from where they were. While they may not make as much money, they are now able to focus on other more meaningful things because the stress of work is not longer a factor, or the implications on their health due to their previous employer. And I’m old and know a lot of people!
Look forward with joyful anticipation. You have the best recruiter in the universe on your side. Lean in, let go, and let God.
June 10, 2020 at 6:55 pm #17146
Sorry guys. Going to share an update with you on my unchanged job status and apologizing in advance that my rant is not going to be pretty. Have no other human beings to share this with…and trust me, God has already gotten an earful and then some from me today. Being completely transparent, I am not very happy with Him right now about the way He has handled this whole stinking mess.
It has now been almost 10 weeks since I was unfairly laid off from my job. It was not unfair that they had to lay people off (although I think the response to Covid-19 was totally overblown and unnecessarily resulted in millions like me losing our jobs). Business dropped something like 40% and they had to let people go. It was unfair because I was one of the best Project Managers on our 8-member team and had more seniority than all but two members of the team. I had literally 20 different people from the CIO down to my project team members offer to write me a recommendation on LinkedIn. I get let go, but a new guy who had been there less than 3 months and has established little to no work quality credibility takes my spot. And to add salt to the wound, to this day, my boss has never communicated with me about the layoff. Not even to say he was sorry about the circumstances or to offer to be a recommendation for me. It’s a pathetic way to treat people. I would not wish losing a job on anyone, but I would expect that wise management would take advantage of an unfortunate situation to let go weaker performers and better position the company to emerge stronger on the other side (if there is an other side.)
I am extremely angry right now. Angry at a fallen, unfair world, where ungodly people prosper and get to make unkind decisions that make the lives of God’s kids harder. Angry at a world that has rejected 70…70 of my job applications over the past two months, while working with 9 different recruiters. Are you freakin’ kidding me? Angry that I am more than willing to work and God refuses to help me find a job. Angry that I feel like a bastard…again…with a Heavenly Father who owns the whole world but cannot seem to find a spot for His son. I would never do that to my daughter if I owned a company and she needed a job. I would find a spot for her. Especially if she were in difficult circumstances through no fault of her own and was living responsibly. How come I would do that, but my God won’t? I know I can’t possibly be a better father than He is, but I sure as @#$% don’t understand or like His ways sometimes!
I don’t know what He expects or wants me to do. If we are going home soon, could He not have just allowed me to stay employed until that time? I now, once again, feel unloved, unsafe, and unaccepted. And frankly, after almost 60 years, I am pretty tired of it. Frankly, it’s embarrassing to me. Yeah, I am the guy who gave everyone the Christmas notes for a couple of years bragging on God and warning of His return, and now it looks like He can’t even provide a job for me. I could get a call on a job tomorrow, and I still resent the way He has handled this. It breaks my heart to feel fatherless yet again.
So angry. Please pray for my heart brothers and sisters, because right now I don’t even feel like letting go of what seems like justified anger to me! And I am not quite sure even how to begin, oh great man of God that I am.
June 10, 2020 at 9:48 pm #17159
Watchman, Be angry and sin not! My husband, who is awesome, has not had a decent paying job in over 8 years, talk about difficult! I have to keep praying God carries him. We buried one church, as the denomination asked him to basically be a “hospice” pastor, helping to close churches that were dead or on life support needing to pull the plug … how is that helpful to the heart and mind? Especially after being a successful missionary for 15 years.
I am extremely thankful for my job. It and the Lord have carried us thru, caring for my Dad until his death, my mom still lives with us, at one point my daughter and her family lived with us for three years because of unforeseen circumstances. So believe me, I totally get it, many people do! But, truly, it’s not about you, it’s about the Savior and His power to keep us! Praying for you to be angry and sin not! God loves you with an unbelievable love, rest in His righteous, steadfast, unchanging love. I do not mean to offend, but speaking truth to you! Focus on Whom you believe in and don’t let the prince of this world steal your joy!
June 10, 2020 at 8:18 pm #17149
I know I feel the same way, when trials come upon me. I guess we all could question the Lord and His provision when withheld. In this realm it sucks! But as the Lord transitions and attempts to call us into the spiritual realm, it crushes our flesh!
He is trying to exact greater rewards and deeper relationship! Trust the process regardless the pain! He hasn’t left you, but wants to lead you!
June 10, 2020 at 9:40 pm #17156
While driving to my appointment today I heard a sermon about King David (a man after God’s own heart) who wrote many songs of praise to the Lord and yet when he wrote Psalm 13 … apparently his life was in turmoil and he was anxious for his prayers to be answered and instead David started feeling rejected because the Lord didn’t respond back with the answer right away. But at the end of this passage he realizes God is still in control no matter how big and impossible the problem is. David realizes God still has a plan for his life and he was determined to focus not on the calamity but to trust in God’s faithfulness and mercy and rejoicing in God’s salvation. We need to do the same … by counting our blessings and rejoice in the fact we are heaven bound. We are not to envy the lost because their life might seem rosy and great right now. We have to remember its just a mirage … this life is the best the unsaved will ever have. So keep focusing on the goodness of the Lord and trust Him. He is working behind the scenes and in His perfect timing you will see breakthrough.
How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me?
How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me?
Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death;
Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved.
But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.
I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.
June 10, 2020 at 9:43 pm #17158
June 10, 2020 at 11:36 pm #17161MyWhiteStoneModerator
These passages, Watchman35, are not transcribed from a high horse, rather from a compassionate and heavy heart for your situation. I pray for your spirit, and for the peace of God to return soon for you, somehow.
Job 1:5 – “…and [Job] would rise early in the morning and offer burnt offerings according to the number of them all. For Job said, “It may be that my children have sinned, and cursed God in their hearts.” Thus Job did continually.”
Job 1:20-22 – “Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. And he said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” In all this Job did not sin or charge God with wrong.”
Job 2:9-10 – “Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die.” But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips.”
Job 13:15 – “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him…”
Job 40:6-8 – “Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind and said: “Dress for action like a man; I will question you, and you make it known to me. Will you even put me in the wrong? Will you condemn me that you may be in the right?
Luk 22:31 — “And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat…”
Eph 6:12 – “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”
Who knows, Watchman? For what it’s worth, we sincerely love you.
June 11, 2020 at 12:55 pm #17187YohananModerator
Watchman, I have not experienced the kind of distress you are under, but there are two things God seems to like to do. One, is that He provides at the last possible moment. I do not understand this except that through the fires of trial He tests out faith and refines us. Secondly, I also know this to be true, that He has a job for you but if you find employment “today” you will not have the job that He is working out for you. Some things take time even for God to maneuver into place. He is wanting you to trust Him as you walk blindly in this dark world. Faith is everything to Him. I cannot say that I understand it, but I know it to be true. It is by faith that we are saved through Jesus Christ. No other methodology. Only faith. I pray that our Father will provide for your needs and to strengthen your faith, which He gives to us in the first place. I also pray that His Spirit of peace will rest upon you. Hang in there, brother! God will provide!
June 23, 2020 at 1:34 pm #18037
Update: Still no job. Job application tracker up to line 83. Soul feels brutally assaulted (and I choose those words carefully). Just had my best job lead dry up today. Crushed me, again. Just crawled into bed and sobbed. Have no idea what God expects me to do or what he wants from me. Trying to do the right thing and find a job to support my family, but my experience of Him is that He continues to stand indifferently on the sidelines withholding His help and favor.
And this all comes on the heels of a brutal Father’s Day. With my experience again this year, I think I can say I officially hate Father’s Day. Dealing with the seemingly never-ending legacy of the pain from my earthly father’s rejection/abandonment, the pain from a 10-minute, awkward, superficial, and obligatory phone call from my grown daughter (for whom I poured out my life in trying to be everything to her that my dad was not for me), and the pain of great disappointment towards my heavenly Father in refusing to respond to my cries for help. Yep, pretty sure I won’t be getting that call from Hallmark for the posterchild gig extolling the virtues of Father’s Day.
What a cruel and painful world…
June 23, 2020 at 1:57 pm #18038
Lord, I pray and ask that you bring peace and assurance to this brothers heart and soul!
If only he could know how much You grieve with him! No Lord, you are not Santa Clause, but a loving Father mindful of his trials.
Praying Lord for a peace that surpasses human understanding! God forgive and understand every thought and word spoken in anger!
Even as Christ felt forsaken of the Father, so too we all have at some point! But like Christ we also shall be glorified!
June 23, 2020 at 3:09 pm #18042
I’m so sorry … but please think of it this way … that job wasn’t in the Lord’s will for you. He has a much better one prepared and you have to trust Him and have patience as He works things out.
I can give testimony of my mom’s experience. She worked in the school district and her job position was being eliminated but she had seniority so she was guaranteed work but didn’t know which school (about 14 other schools and here she was only 2 blocks from the current one). She heard rumors there were only 2 positions opening up in Sept … reporting to someone who had a reputation of not being nice and the other was a chain smoker. Back then it was still ok to smoke on school grounds. So she prayed and the verses she claimed were Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths”. Well she just sat back and waited for the assigned position. When Sept arrived she had to report to the boss who was “the chain smoker” in the Vocational Dept. The high school was 1 mile further but she was thankful it was still close to home. The first day on the job she noticed her boss doesn’t have a cigarette in his mouth nor did she see any ash trays laying around so she asked him if he stopped smoking. He said “yes, he had to quit cold turkey because he had a massive heart attack and was warned if he continued to smoke he would be a goner.” She asked when his heart attack occurred … get this … it was the SAME DAY she started praying! See how the Lord works behind the scenes? And on top of that with her working in the Vocational Dept, part of her job was assigning part-time jobs to the seniors on the work scholarship program. I was in the Christian school and they didn’t have this type of program available so this is how I was able to get the cool job of working for the Police Dept my senior year. It was either that or being a boring bank teller. She was in contact with more teachers and vendors to order the supplies with the trade school (cooking, cosmetology, auto shop, etc) and was able to share her faith with many. So don’t worry … the Lord has your life all planned exactly where He wants you to be and He is going to provide.
Just curious, does your daughter also disrespect your wife too? I will be praying for her salvation.
Note: I also need a job. This is not the metropolis so I’m pretty much looking at … cleaning hotel rooms/bed/Breakfasts, bank teller or cashier work. How exciting. I was going to apply at a local dept store that is moving into the area but because of the COVID-19 virus the renovation of the building was put on hold. The way I see it … wherever the Lord opens the doors … it will be a short live experience because if they require their employees to be vaccinated … forget it … so I’m not fretting … I’m looking up for the rapture instead.
Yesterday was an interesting day … I was buying some groceries and updating this one cashier about my experience with my colonoscopy exam. Meanwhile the manager of the store overheard the conversation and was asking questions since she is not feeling well. I was able to give her some helpful advice and will be giving her more literature on her particular illness and what fruits/veggies and tea (Dandelion Root) to take vs. being on medications. She was so grateful and I told her I’m praying for her and was able to give her a Bible tract. Who knows … if the rapture doesn’t happen by this Sept … perhaps she is one of the hiring managers and I will get employed at the grocery store? Still hoping for the rapture though.
for you Watchman. That you see breakthrough soon.
June 23, 2020 at 4:27 pm #18050
Geri7 Said: Just curious, does your daughter also disrespect your wife too? I will be praying for her salvation.
No, she is much closer and communicative with my wife. And unless she is a has become a really good liar/actress (which she rarely lied as a child), I truly believe she knows the Lord and has believed on Him. She prayed to put her trust in the Lord when she was five and then reaffirmed that a couple of years later when she and I prayed together. We fed her the Word throughout her childhood and homeschooled her to give her the best opportunity to become grounded in her faith before the inevitable assault of the unbelieving world arrived in full force. I coached her Upward basketball teams, participated with her in Angel Tree and Shoe Box volunteer activities through church, learned scripture songs with her, took off work to hear her presentations and speeches at homeschool co-op events, played Little House (I was Pa, she was Laura) with her on our apartment front steps, helped her navigate her application process for college, ran point on coordinating a massive (1500-2000 people) event for her high school homeschool graduation. Yet, for the last 8-9 years, something has changed and she now wants very little to do with me in terms of any meaningful relationship. We rarely speak on the phone, and when we do it is often awkward and guarded on her end. It breaks my heart…over and over again. I have talked to her about it more than once, with tears in my eyes, but she is either unable or unwilling to communicate what has changed. Honestly, if she were not my daughter, whom I love dearly, I would have walked away from the relationship years ago based on how she has treated me and the pain the relationship has caused me. After all the pain I experienced tied to my relationship with my dad as a kid growing up, I so looked forward to becoming friends with my daughter as she transitioned from childhood to an independent adult. But she does not want it. And I live with yet another piece of my heart in a constant state of brokenness.
June 23, 2020 at 7:56 pm #18071
I’m so sorry your daughter is acting this way. I can’t imagine the heartache. I do have 2 nieces that I helped raise (babysat a lot) and they don’t communicate with me that much. They only contact me for money or gifts and I never receive any thank you. It’s not like I’m expecting a card … just an email saying “thank you” would be nice. It used to bother me but my godly Aunt taught me … “expect nothing from anybody and then you won’t be disappointed”.
The Bible tells us what life will be like in the last days before He returns will be a thankless generation …
II Timothy 3:1-5
This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.
For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.
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June 23, 2020 at 9:11 pm #18074
Watchman, Geri, & TR — about 6 yrs ago my dad died and my oldest brother, who claims to be a believer told my mom that we are now dead to him because the inheritance was robbed from him….there was no inheritance, my dad left my mom penniless, except for the house, we had to buy it all over again and take out extra so we all would have a place to live. I’ve had no word from him in all this time, he lives 15 min away, won’t take calls, sent card back. We heard thru my other brother and my son that my sister- in- law recently died from CA, we sent flowers, but nothing. Such hate is not from God, it is a cancer that grows and kills, we pray for him, so very sad. The verse is very true, within the church and in the later days … Luke 12:53 “They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.”
Many families experience such — it is hurtful and from satan… God said in 1 John 2:11 “But whoever hates his brother is in the darkness and walks in the darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes.”
1 John 3:11. “We know that we have passed out of death into life, because we love the brothers. Whoever does not love abides in death.”
So just keep praying for the loved ones … he who is faithful shall see the wonders of God.
July 6, 2020 at 3:44 pm #18909
First week of the fourth month in being without a job since I was laid off for Covid on April 3rd. My job application spreadsheet tracker is now up to line 96. Where are You Lord????????? What are You doing????? I would love to feel Your arm around my shoulder and Your reassuring voice telling me You’ve got this. I sense neither. And so I live in that waaaaaaay tooooooo familiar place of having to rely on my spirit to defend Your faithfulness to my soul, where my emotions struggle horribly to trust You rather than accuse You.
Thankfully, we have food to eat, a roof over our heads, my wife still has her job, and all bills are currently paid, with the exception of my mortgage, which has been placed on Covid-19 forbearance for the last three months and probably for the next three after I make a phone call later today. This is so stinking uncomfortable for me. At times, it truly feels like a form of mental torture because I cannot get my emotions to trust the Lord. CANNOT WAIT TO BE DONE WITH ME AND MY CARNAL NATURE!! Prayer appreciated.
July 6, 2020 at 3:58 pm #18911
We lift this brother Lord and bring his needs before your throne! Help him go through this storm, or be Raptured from it!
Life is indeed a great gift, but a trying one at times. You placed us here and have given tools and instruction to succeed.
Truth be known Lord, we need your assistance in all that we attempt to do! That said, it is for this cause we lift our prayers towards Heaven, that by the hearing of the ear and heart, You would respond!
Praying that You respond Lord lovingly and quickly! Override any spiritual loopholes, and break all barriers that would prevent Your mighty provision!
In Jesus’ glorious name we pray!
July 20, 2020 at 9:03 am #20149
Hi there. Here’s an update and prayer request for this morning.
As you know, I have been out of work since April 3 (Covid layoff). I have a job interview for a short-term contract PM position this morning at 1030 CDT. I am very conflicted in that I am not even sure how to pray anymore. I am still dealing with disappointment, pain, confusion and anger towards the Lord because I thought He had communicated to me several years ago that the job I was just laid off from would be my last job before the Church raptured out (as in I would still be working at that job when the harpazo took place).
Now, I don’t know whether I just missed God with my own thoughts, or had some bad pizza, or if I am now engaging in a futile exercise of unbelief to try to find work (have applied to over 100 positions now). Meanwhile, the clock is ticking on unemployment benefits. I MUCH prefer working to earn a living, as opposed to drawing what feels to me to be a handout (at less than half my previous salary). My wife would be quite concerned if I just stopped looking for work and said the Lord told me to do that.
Please pray for peace, favor, wisdom and God’s will to be done on this interview. I have asked the Lord to give me a job with a start date on the other side of the harpzao, if I did hear Him correctly and I have worked my last job on this side of glory. Being crushed to dust yet again by the Potter to be refashioned. Ugghhh!!
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July 20, 2020 at 1:31 pm #20165
Prayers going up for you Watchman and for your husband, Blue. If we are still here after Sept I will have to start looking for work myself and in the back of my mind are the dreaded thoughts of … “I don’t want to have to wear a mask all day at work let alone be required to have the vaccination shot”. Praying we are all rescued and taken home SOON before all this comes to pass. Keep the faith and keep being thankful. Jesus loves His children and promises to provide our daily needs.
July 20, 2020 at 3:22 pm #20170
Thank you for the prayers. The interview seemed to go pretty well from my perspective. Of course, you never know for sure what is going on in the interviewer’s mind (“…Can’t wait to get done with this guy. :)
Was supposed to start at 1030 and last until 1100. Well, the recruiter screwed up the details, and instead of the straight phone interview it was supposed to be, it was changed last minute to a video Zoom. That sent me scurrying into the closet last minute to pull out a work shirt to throw over my t-shirt. LOL. I did my best Shaun Hannity imitation, with my dress shirt in the camera while wearing shorts and flip flops off camera. LOL.
Well, once we got the Zoom up and running, it was already 1045. Interview ended up lasting until 1130, when the main guy had a hard stop. Again, it seemed like it went fairly well from my perspective. Just the fact that it lasted longer than scheduled is usually a pretty good indicator. Anyway. Should know something more hopefully by end of the week. Position would start in August, preferably early August from his perspective, but could end up being mid-August before they can get through all the hiring hoops. That would give me enough time to have the job sitting there for me, but still be raptured before I ever actually work a day on it, thereby aligning with what I thought I heard from the Lord several years that I would not have another job before we were raptured.
Time will tell. I’ll keep you posted. It is nice just to have a job possibility on my list that I don’t have a reason to scratch out. Oh, and if we happen to meet in the air or around the throne before I communicate my next update here on RITAN, you can safely assume the point has become eternally moot. Just sayin’. Maranatha!!!
August 11, 2020 at 6:57 pm #27430
As of today, I am up to 150 job applications in just over four months of being unemployed. Smh. Have followed up on 99% of all leads that have come to me from a multitude of sources. At the end of July, I had six active leads I was working. As of the news today, all but one of those leads have become closed doors, and the one that remains theoretically open felt like a long-shot to me from the beginning, so I don’t hold out much hope on that one.
Many of the jobs that I felt like I was well-qualified for and being given serious consideration for have become doors slammed in my face for a variety of reasons. The person who was going to leave to create the opening decided to stay. The position has now been placed on hold indefinitely. The position has now been filled internally. The hiring manager decided we did not need the position after all. We originally planned to higher three project managers, but a decision was made to reduce that to 1. And on and on and on it goes.
I almost have to laugh at this point–at least for the moment all the tears have already been cried. It could not be more painfully clear to me that God is absolutely choosing to keep me from finding a job as a project manager. There is no other explanation in my mind and I cannot tell you why. I told Him if He is trying to teach me some sort of lesson, He needs to help me understand what that is because right now I have no idea what I am suppose to learn. It just seems like pointless pain and futility. I literally walk around the house alone some days, screaming at the Lord at the top of my lungs asking Him what He is supposedly accomplishing by this torment? Meanwhile, as a man trying desperately to find work to provide for my family, the rejection and sense of failure brutally assaults my soul, while my God sits on the sidelines.
I have no idea what God wants me to do?!? And just to make things even more difficult and painful, now I am fighting painful sciatica and debilitating headaches from my neck into the lower part of my head, which is making it harder to get out on the street corner and walk my rapture warning sign.
The longer I am here on this planet, the more I hate it and long to be removed from it!! I wanted to finish this life strong and victorious for the Lord, running hard right through the finish line. Feels now like God has determined I should finish it crushed, bloodied, and crawling to make it to the end. Just for the record, Lord, it is not even remotely close to what I would have chosen!
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Watchman, hang in there … the race is almost done. Always remember you are already a winner and we are too … because we have Jesus living inside of us. Keep the faith … Jesus is coming to snatch us all home VERY soon! Perhaps you will have a Project Manager position in the Millennium Kingdom.
Yum! That heavenly tea party sounds divine with the scones and lemon curd cookies ….
August 11, 2020 at 10:39 pm #27595
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